A rogue in me to open my confidence

Yesterday i went to my uncle's office with my brother to drop in bike. Because i left my bike for service.

I went and finish my personal work's n left there.

I saw a foreign girl where everyone looking at her way of dress.

I was little ashame of myself due to few idiotic looks given by few people on her.

Then i walk through the steps for bus stand., there i saw 4 cute girls waiting for bus.

They were starring at me, mainly in that 2 girls where looking at me.

I will be always unusual if someone saw me.

I catched up the bus and the same way they too get into it.

In that 2 girls, one girl looks so modern... she was starring at me.

While the bus crossed the end of road, there was a political strike occurs.

I left the bus, it seems like that bus wont move out.

Those girls to step out of it.

Then after i saw those girls moving here and there.

I want to speak with that modern girl who stared at me.

Cos i got curious on my mind of she stares.

I put a bet with my inner mind, i can speak to her.

But my inner mind says, "I Can't"

I dont like the words "I cant" and "I wont" like those negative stuff.

Hence i put bet with my mind after tossing a coin to make it favor of mine.

Then i got concluded to get guts and straight away went near her.

Then i said her "Excuse me, you are looking good". She got afraid and said "Ah. Ahhh.."

Then i said, "dont be weird" and walked other and then they four walked through other different way.

I got again a click in mind to ask sorry for what i did.

Anyhow, its little bit unusual. cos of bet, i did madly.

Hence, i followed her to say sorry.

They were going to Nonveg hotel, where as i converted to vegetarian.

But the hotel can serve both veg and non veg., but they were famous for Non-veg.

I moved in and had nice dishes.

They were speaking about me, i can see they were starring me.

The other girl who stares were little jealous, cos i said another one as beautiful.

Then i moved out hotel after lunch, even i left my mineral water bottle.

All 4 came out, i suddenly followed and said her... "Sorry" but she mistaken and gone away from me.

Whereas i want to ask sorry....

I know its wrong., but i did for a bet with my mind.

After i left, i really got big confidence... I can do anything unless it doesnt harm others.

So i got big confidence on my business without harming others.

Thanks for the confidence which can be given by her knowing or unknowingly.

Even i didnt remember her face now, how she looks.

She is not so beauty.

Just for fun and curious i did.  even mainly for bet with my mind.

Lol

Thanks for everything. but she may mistaken me wrongly.

BKS

A nice one

I saw someone going on my way.

I saw someone striking my life.

I saw someone who being missed out.

I saw someone who is crossing of it.

Jus like that life it goes on end of u.

Thanks from Parul

This is the day when i was in lunch queue, parul came near myself to take tissue paper.

Finally when she left the place, she said me to thanks for giving her way.

But i didnt notice the same, my friends said that she said thanks.

Really which makes me delight, am not in love with her.

Its just flirting on a girl, i knew.

But i like the way when she said thanks.

I messaged her through a social network, without speaking to her in straight.

This really makes me uncomfort of messaging to her in social networking, since am stranger to her as of now.

Anyhow nice of hearing thanks from her.

A sad day - for scolding my mom

This day i scolded my mom for the dinner is not good.

My work pressure and tiredness makes me to scold her.

That really makes me feel sad of scolding her.

I really cant able to understand why i scolded her.

I feel really sorry for my idiotic step.

But i love her more than me.

Last nite fun with Reena

A known person, not very closest one in my friend.. Just a friend., whom i knew through my professional course.

I was just playing with her through sms and phone.

It was went till night 1.00 am.

She said,"some guys proposed her" But i said, "they dont have eyes, cos they proposed an ugly girl.." for kidding i said her.

Then the chat went through some kind of fun..  wantedly i said "now am gonna propose you"

She said, "hey. dont joke, i know you wont propose"

But from childhood, am the character, if someone says you cant... then i say... i can...

Hence i said her "I love you" its for fun, but not reality.

She then came and said "sama comedy panara nee, cos she doesnt believe my words and she well knew am jus kidding her, cos i cant love any other after my ex-lover whom i missed it"

The fun was went through night and she confused n make fun out of me.

It was really nice.

But i worried few times, whether i said anything wrong...

But she taken as sportive and fun..

Nice of her that time..

But she is angry girl.

Due to that conversation, i slept late night..

Hence now am feeling sleepy in evening itself.

Regards

BKS

Confusion about wednesday night and the other day

Im terribly confused of life, that whether am in love or possessiveness of friendship.

Since am not jealous when she speaks to her guy.

But am getting jealous, when she speaks with other guys than her lover.

For this, i dont know whether am jealous on friendship or love her.

I know she is in love with other guy, but people here confusing me to take some other decisions too.

Anyhow i got clarity on friday, its about i used to get possessed of whatever i have., from pen to my own things.

Like that, i may get jealous on her. Its not love, but its pure friendship with love on my friend.

Really gonna miss her, when she left the place as a friend.

But am happy, that she is going to happy of seeing her lover.

All the best for her.

Even i dont want her to read this.

But am posting to make a story of mine.

Regards

BKS

Mine's sake for God towards my love to fail.

The girl whom i like in sudden due to a confused mind and heart.

I was dull with the last week fully, she doesnt know the reason.. But she know that am dull alone.

I was praying towards god to face me.. and requested god to achieve her love with that guy into marriage.

Because due to me, their love should not fail.

Since few times am being good in my heart, for that kindness god should not make their love to fail.

Hence i prayed god after 6 years of it for me, the love of her and her guy should be achieved.

You know after 6 long years, i prayed god for her.

I wont pray, cos i believe on me rather than any other things in the world.

Am not head weighted guy, but i believe in confidence.

I hope her love should get into marriage.

Regards

BKS

Why i feel shy

I wont get shy, if people teases me.

In my office, a trainee there... if guys would tease in front of her, i feel like shy.

Hence, i could wish to correct myself. why am i feel of shy.

Even i find hard to know the answer.

Im really asking my guys not to tease me.

I wont care before when they tease with any other, but now am pleasing them not to do so.. till her moves.

BKS

Feel Jealous

When a girl am look at her, but she was impressed on the her makes me to feel jealous.
I know, i would like her mainly she had affectionate with him. I dont know whether am right or wrong.
But my heart doesnt able to understand the same. I know she never doubted me. I love the way she love the other guy.

Since i didnt feel at her love in first sight. While moving on with her everyday makes to understand how she is and how the love she felt on that guy, which makes me to impressive.

Its feel sometimes am doing wrong or putting up others shoes. But when it fits and impresses, i wish to own it for me. I know, am surely wont be the enemy for anyone's love or life. Then how could i spoil her love whom i loved.

I love her expressions but doesnt wish her to be sad. Sometimes when i feel she came closer to me, am impressed of her. she is moving to me so fast as its. But i love her after long time of my ex.

This is really tough period of mine.

I know am not wrong person, but am really loving her madly now.

Its not that we are right always.

Sometimes someone needs to be bad on their way.

Please love me dear......

CS I love you.

Love

Love is the feel where everyone thinks its an exchange offer. But really not.

Its feel not an exchange offer.

Where all think, if you give this and then i will give you back.

Its not shopping one, its feel of heaven.

Love is mixture of romance, feel, sad, shy, anger, wisdom, missed etc.,

So love everyone... its not only meant for lovers...

Its for friends, family, relationship and every one...

Why questions always arise?

Everyday when i woke up and raise for the day, questions raising when it will come true. I have always trying my dreams to come true and going behind a step back due to some idiotic mess up.

But where is lagging, no other than your mind which is not perfect of it.

Am trying to deviate the same, but not possible due to addiction of some of the hurdles.

What makes me to divert, is it failures. Yes, but how to overcome.

Questions arise always.

Where am i?

Why am i?

What am i?

How am i?

These all questioning me everyday.

But really sad to know when am i?

I will do it, the answer came.

Am happy with the answer.

Searching of Life

The thing is really different of my life and everyday i search of it. There is always one thing which i love is searching. You know searching which makes you happy always. Henceforth the word searching is dominating and denominating fact of my life.

My life starts with searching of survival, then it goes on of studies, then after behind games n sports, then and then by love and beauty of teens., thereafter dream of hope and business.

But my search never stops till now.

There is no point whether you got answer for all, it doesn't really put matter on it.

Its always the matter whether you are searching for it.

Search which never makes you tired, may be you get tired but enjoy everything what you do.

Even mounts of losses will make you to put back of life, but never step down or never give up.

I always believe positive of searching every second of my life.

Will see more on my searching of it.

Even of my life all is searching for it.

BKS